Okay sorry for not been blogging lately....have I ever told you about my secret crush? I guess not because I haven't been writing it on this unpopular private blog hehehe lol (it's sorta true) but you know what whatever because I am now writing about it...for those who aren't interested please don't read it, its just a long ranting of a teenage girl....for those who are I have warned you....
There is this one guy that I sorta like...and he is not from my school but he is from my church (there you go I gave you a really big hint :p). Lets refer to this guy as "X" because I don't want to say directly because I'll be really shy about it and its not cool to do that. One feature that I like about X is that I always have a thing for tall guys and guess what he is actually tall....and his looks are not that bad (I know I look at looks which is really bad but come on I am in my youth years I am attracted to eye-candy people).
I have been attending the same church as him since I don't know maybe when I was a baby....oh yeah I forgot to mention that X is 2 years older than me...X attends the morning session of the church while I attend the mid-morning-ish session (the session starts at 9:30 a.m.) so yeah like that...thus I have never seen him much back then....but2 there is this one time when I was in grade 3 and there was this camping trip in church and I went there and X was there too...I remembered it perfectly and the thing that I remembered up until now is that I was in the same group as him....back then I was not so into him in fact I wasn't into him at all...but I don't know maybe things changed....oh yeah and our group didn't win because we were too slow or something I forgot it was pretty old back then....
Fast forward to the next 5 years that is when I was in grade 8, we had this Christmas celebration in my church and every kid from level 7 to level 8 must participate and perform something like a song or dance or a drama something like that and I remembered that all the kids must come on saturday at 2 p.m or 3 p.m. something and it turns out that all the kids didn't turn up except for me and this one guy Henry...the others were participating for the drama oh and there was one of my classmate from my school, his name is Wilson and he was the good guy in the drama and he is actually pretty good...okay I was alone and didn't have any much entertainment( I didn't even have a phone) so what did I do? Right what I did was I kept watching the kids practicing the drama, let me tell you the first take was alright the second take was okay too but as it goes until around the 6th or the 7th time it bores me, I may even remember the lines. Before the kids were practicing the drama X already came, he was actually going to perform as a pianist for the christmas celebration.and he was performing some songs in the keyboard and then I think he was getting bored or something he took his guitar and started to jam with Henry and I don't know I was pretty bored so I looked at him for entertainment and I think he noticed me looking at me...and I think I don't know if it is true or not but he sorta looked at me back( I am not kidding) but that time I wasn't interested at him at all because I was in love with k-pop and stuffs like that.
Then there I was in grade 9 and I moved to the teenager's community in my church and guess what? X is in it....yeahh I know....whenever he plays the piano in the church I kept staring at him I have no idea why but in my mind I like to stare at him because he is so cool playing the piano. Weeks after weeks, months after months, I came to realise that I might have a crush on him? I don't know I thought it that way but I wasn't sure back then....
I came to realise it when I was in level 10, yup, I admit it in my heart that I have a huge crush on X but it doesn't really matter because many girls have a crush on him too so its normal to have a crush on him....so I started to tell my sisters and my close friends....now this is what happens when you tell a guy that you like to a friend especially this one friend that I have, her name is Micheline, I told her that I have a crush on guy and I sent her a photo and I don't know I was just so pissed when she liked the same guy that I like too I know it is immature but I was pretty mad because come on I saw him first right before her....and the worst thing of all she played a joke on me that she got his contact through his twitter and I felt into her trap and that night I was really sad I have no idea why?? From that moment I swear to myself that I will never tell her about X ever again....Oh right I forgot to mention that I stalked him and I found his twitter account and so I followed him...and I think about the next 2 or 3 months after many times of mentioning him to follow back, he finally followed back....and you know how it feels when a guy that you like follows you back it feels amazing I don't even know what to react. At first I have no intention of mentioning him at all but my other friend, Sherlin , she got followed by him because she mentioned him to follow back, I was pretty much jealous, you know what I never get my friends at all one likes to make me pissed and the other one likes to compete with me in the things that I like for example I used to like this UK band called Blue and I kept talking about it for a long time and she said like this "I want to watch Blue's concert" but she doesn't even like the band why would you waste your money on something that you hate?? And sometimes she can get really freaky...(creepy huh)
Then after that I got followed back by X, I was so happy I told Sherlin about it the next day and Micheline was like "how come you can get followed by him" and I was like "oh yeah because I am the man huaha B-)"then she was like "I have to get followed by him too if both Sherlin and Vivi(my nick-name is Vivi from Victoria) is followed by him" and she was like on twitter and keeps mentioning him but X didn't follow her up till now....this is what you get from pranking me!!! After that a month passed, I was over him when I was having my first-term exams...but........
On the 30th of December 2012, Sunday, I was attending my church after I have finished my sermon, I went down to wait for my parents and my 2 older sisters, me and younger sister was waiting down and X was passing by, I think he was waiting for his mother too, it was quiet long, I was playing my phone because I was really bored and I also talked to my little sis and my friend, Melinda and I think he overheard my conversation amongst me, Melinda and Helen, I don't know we were pretty loud...then after talking I played my phone and stalk about Kili (a dwarf from the hobbit, he is played by Aidan Turner in the movie The Hobbit), I was smiling at my phone because looking at his face makes me smile too, Kili actually its Aidan Turner who makes my day, so I was fangirling alone, and when I moved my head up from the phone I saw him seeing me playing my phone and I was like in my heart why is this guy wants me to like him ughh you know I am not pretty like the other girls, I am short, my hair is like Tarzan, my body is pretty much not ideal, why-why...and on the same day again after my parents have finished listening to the sermon, we went home using the car and on the road, my older sister noticed X's car, and I was like oh my why.....this is really.....I can't explain it.....
Now today on new year which is on the 1st of January 2013, Tuesday, which a.k.a is my birthday, there was church again...now I was walking on my new heels that I bought which is pretty uncomfortable for walking and in the church's main hall I saw him again...he was playing his phone and I think he saw me but I was walking in a hurry as I was really slow when walking with the heels...then while I was sitting in the church bench I was pretty much sleepy because of the noisy fireworks at night....I was yawing and you know what X came and I think I felt that he saw me and I was like "Vi, stop yawning, he saw you!" It was pretty much akward and then after I went out of the church sermon room he came out too I don't know why but he did it was really weird and my mom talked to him, I was walking down the stairs and I heard my mom talking to a guy's voice and as I turmed around it was actually X.....I didn't want to be "Geer" but I don't know why he followed me or something???
Okay you know sorry for the long ranting.....Happy New Year to everybody!!!! Wish you all the best this year and may God bless you!!! I am pretty much excited for this year because the hobbit: the desolation of Smaug is released on the 13th of December 2013!!! I am also waiting for Star Trek, Thor 2 and Mortal Instruments!!!! I am planning to read the book.....oh look its already 11.00 p/m.....good night :)
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